on 28th january i am travelling to america and canada for 2 months.
i have been dating this guy for a couple of months.
recently we’ve gotten really close and it has worried me, when i go away and come back home, he won’t want to be with me anymore or his feelings will have changed.
last night, laying in this bed together he said to me,
‘don’t freak out, please. i am not heartless. i know others have let you down but i’m not like that. i’ve been raised better then that. i won’t hurt you. i will be here when you get back.’
i wanted to tell him in that moment i loved him.
but instead i laid there in the dark with him and cried because for once in my life, i felt like someone wasn’t going to give up on me and on us.